Beautifully Bruised

I’ve tried so hard to be happy. And sometimes I am, but it comes sparadically, in increments of seconds. I’ve tried to move on from the college that gave me no education whatsoever but I can’t forget the people I befriended and the majesty of the city. I left because I knew the college i was attending wasn’t for me at all. Everytime I see a saved picture from those times, i want to delete it because a part of me wants to move on, but the hands of friendship keep pulling me back. They cover the delete button and look at me with puppy dog eyes. I really do love my friends, i love every moment we spent together. I laughed everyday and cried maybe two days in the nine months I was there. I can’t imagine life without them and away from the city. Now that things aren’t going as planned here, i never wished so hard that I was somewhere else. I miss you guys more than life itself. I know I don’t call as often, I’m distant and not only in the literal way. I just want you guys to know that I will always love you. Just because i’m absent minded, doesn’t mean you’re absent from my mind.

Manashi, Jess, Andrew, Josh, Lauren, Dani, Dave, Brian, Britni, Chloe…

You all made my college experience more than what I hoped for.

I love you.